Fortune Favours the Bold

There are moments in my life when I wonder: why am I even doing this. (By this, I mean life, in general, not blogging.)

This was one of those weeks, I woke up on Monday morning to the beast from the east striking again, we were hit with snow. Remember, I am in my second year of college, exams are about 2 months away and I haven’t even finished learning the content, so it wasn’t as welcoming as some would think. However, I took it with confidence and tried to get work done at home. But, I woke up in a slump. In my dictionary, a slump is like an uncontrollable lack of motivation that no matter what you do, you can’t get rid off. This mood seemed to last with me the whole week. Comment below if you’ve ever been in a slump. Thoughts drifted through my mind, ‘you should quit’, ‘you won’t pass’; ‘why don’t you drop out now’. Then, I reminded myself, why I am here, where I am going and what I want to achieve.

When you are in these moods, you have to remind yourself that you have been made for greatness. That most of the bad thoughts that swirl in your mind are creations that mean nothing. That the labels we have been given – gender, grades, numbers – mean nothing if we don’t want them. I read a quote that resonated with me; “Fortune does favour the bold and you’ll never know what you’re capable of if you don’t try.”

I believe we are all capable. Capable of anything. Tomorrow is Monday. Again. I am determined to wake up on the right side of the bed and tackle it like a boss.

Peace out, Accidental Aspirationalists

Love Anita x

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Is University Worth It?

Hi guys, hope you’re all having a good week and welcome back to another blog post.

Judging from the title, you probably know what I am going to ramble on about today, so grab a seat and a drink and enjoy.

As many of you will know, I am in my last year of A Levels (aged 17-18) and I am supposed to be heading off to the unknown world of university. Attending university has always been in the works for me, for as long as I remember. I don’t know if this is because both of my parents attended or if it is because I cannot see myself in a profession that does not require higher education. Either way, I know I am going to university. So, this September is my due date to enter the system. It truly is a system, you enter, you drown in debt (or so I’ve heard) and then you enter the ‘real’ world – the world of money, debt and desperately looking for a job. Is it worth it?

Many students, myself included, are convinced that it is. That starting your adult life, often, on the minimum living wage in £50,000+ debt is the best way. For the greater good. In my eyes, it is slowly becoming the lesser evil.  As much as I don’t want to be stuck in a retail job or in a 9-5 job for the rest of my life, is it worth going to university where I have to take out a loan of about £15,000 per year just so I can be in the job I want?

On top of that, when I finally start to earn the salary I need to pay back my student loan, interest is added. Yes, that’s right, I have to pay interest on top of my £50,000 debt. The ‘real’ world is a cruel place, my friends.

Sometimes I do not feel that the generation before understand that I will literally not survive with £3000 loan if I go to London or how worrying it is to know that you may be in debt to the system for the rest of your life. I’ll give some perspective – the average accommodation price in London is £160 per week. In the Uni year, there are about 40 weeks so approximately, £6400 on accommodation, in addition to my actual tuition fees (£9,250). Bam! One year in, I’m £15,000 down at the end of year one of uni.  Whilst thinking about how I am going to afford this, I am expected to pass my A Levels and get into medical school. I do not want to sound like I am complaining because I know that I am blessed to live in a country with a system that allows me, especially being a black woman, to gain an education. I am truly grateful to God for this.

But, my question is, is it worth it? Can I not find something else that is just as fulfilling and beneficial to other people as medicine but does not require me to graduate in debt? These are the questions that have flooded my mind over the past few days. It saddens me to say that I am scared for my future. I am honestly scared about what the future will be like for me and my generation. Comment below if you have been or are starting uni and what you feel about it. 

Peace out Accidental Aspirationalists.

Love Anita x

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Week One – 1// Exams, stress, UKCAT…

My first blog post yeah!

Welcome family! So to start off- interest fact. Did you know that the average high school (secondary school/college- UK viewers) student today has the same level of anxiety as the average psychiatric patient in the early 1950’s? No, well I confirm that is extremely true.

This week has probably been the ultimate stress week of this summer. After what seems like endless weeks of relaxing and probably spending 12 hours a day watching youtube videos; being confronted with the idea of going back to college next week and taking the UKCAT (which for those of you who don’t know, the UKCAT is the clinical aptitude test for medical school entry) was not my ideal way to end the summer. In fact, I felt stressed and anxious for the most part of the last couple of weeks.

On the happier side, I did the test today and well… I didn’t do too shabbily! So back to my last 36 hours of watching youtube videos for me I should think!

BAM!

I am very very wrong.

At the back of my mind, I can’t shake the feeling of stress because next week I know that the lack of sleep and piles of work will return and I don’t know if I’m fully prepared for it to be honest.  The life of an average teenager these days is not what the older generations think. (well in some aspects it probably is!) In fact, my life largely consists of completing assignments the day before and cramming textbooks.

On top of this, I have summer work to do, and we all know what that means. I haven’t done a single piece. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve planned to do it but I’ve just been so busy watching Game of Thrones so I haven’t found the time in my busy example of a life…

I well aware right now that I have portrayed myself as the perfect student. Obviously. But, I can reassure you when the time is ripe, I will get back to the grind (work- in case you don’t know what grind means) and get those grades!

After all, I want to be a doctor.

That brings me back to that point. I want to be a doctor. Yes, if you haven’t read my about page – which I strongly recommend – I have been working for the last couple of months on experience, my personal statement and a little bit on my grades. I say a little bit about my grades because I really need to put the work in next year at college. But as the old saying goes, Time will tell.

I know that being a doctor is tough. The long hours and stress of the job aren’t what influenced the decision I have made to try. It’s the rewards. The lives’ saved under a doctor’s hand. Also, knowing that wherever you are, in any place, the role is the same. A doctor has that ability. That’s why I want to be one.

Well, I think that’s all I’ve got to say for now. So I want to leave you with this. Keep dreaming. Keep believing. And it doesn’t matter what situation you’re in, you can accomplish anything!

Peace out accidental adventurers x