Hi and welcome back to my blog.
What a weird phenomenon! I haven’t written on here in over 2 years… wow. I guess I should begin with why I stopped and why I’ve decided to pick up the *virtual* pen and start again.
There isn’t a dramatic reason to why I haven’t posted a blog post in over 2 years. I started university (and have now almost finished – crazy!) and I guess just lost track of time. I think you’ll be more interested in why I decided to start again. So here we go.
REASON ONE: I miss writing.
It really is as simple as that. In my everyday life, I feel I am not creative or don’t tap into the more creative side of me as much as I would like to. My degree is heavily science focussed and I don’t read as much as I used to (I am trying to change that). I find that a life without creativity can be quite dull and monotonous. For me anyway. As much as I was born to do science, I feel I was also born to be creative. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t claim to be a creative in anyway. I do feel there is a difference between being creative and being a creative. But that’s probably a blog post for a different day. So, this morning, I kind of woke up and realised that I missed having a private outlet that is mine. In a world constantly governed by social media, checking what someone has posted, the latest tweet, the latest news article; I feel that I have lost touch with the more au natural side of myself, if that makes sense. What I mean is – I feel that I miss just writing for myself and just doing things for myself rather than being consumed by this ever-changing beast we call the internet. And also, I started writing my dissertation and realised that I just missed writing in general (so maybe this is just procrastination haha). Right, I guess I’ve explained reason one. I miss writing for myself really, not for anyone else and definitely not for my university.
REASON TWO: I need an outlet.
A lot of things have been bothering me recently. The state of the world being one of them. But, I can’t change that so I try not to focus on the external factors but more I need an outlet for the internal factors. As a person, I find that I am easily – how do I describe it – easily bothered. Not in the sense of, I’m annoyed all the time. More like, I just get bothered. I don’t think this is making sense to the average reader but what I’m trying to say is – I just get annoyed. At things in my own life, but like I said earlier also by things I don’t have the power to change which I guess is why I get annoyed. So, I think that’s why I’ve decided to just write them down. I don’t have the power to change anything so that I get less annoyed but I do have the power to express how I feel. I will get more into this in later blog posts but that’s one of the big reasons I have decided to write again. I don’t really expect many people to read it but as I said, this is more for me. For me to express how I feel and why I feel that way. There are many topics I want to speak on. In fact, let me give you a few – Racism. Therapy. The Patriarchy. Religion. Sustainability. A lot of topics really. If anyone is reading, I would like to know your views on it, to start a discussion. Right that’s reason two.
REASON THREE: I want to.
So, I’ve come to the end of my reasonings and I have come to realise. I don’t owe anyone an explanation really. This is one thing I am beginning to learn as I enter early adulthood. I’m not a child anymore and I don’t need to explain why I want to do something to anyone really (unless of course, it’s stupid, dangerous or risky for other people). I find that in today’s world – people have to explain themselves a lot but if what you are doing isn’t effecting other’s people’s lives then you don’t have to explain yourself. I guess the statement that follows this is – rarely are we as human beings doing things for ourselves and ourselves only. I don’t honestly believe that people do that much for themselves anymore. I think it is more the case of trying to gain or lose or win something. For example, I find that these ‘influencers’ – no matter how much they promote how genuine they are – in the world of capitalism their motives have changed. I’m not saying they’re all out for money or for likes but I guess for them it’s probably nice. My mum always said to me – the reason why people who are rich go broke is because the more you have something, the more you want it. Anyways that’s reason three.
Thank you for reading my short blog post.
I’ll be back soon.
Peace out x