What am I doing right now?
Who knows. This month has been all about UCAS. If some of you don’t know in the UK, we have a specific way of applying for university. It involves an online system where you select 5 choices (unless studying medicine, dentistry or veterinary science) and then UCAS, the online website, sends them to the university for you. I have had a hard hard month.
But, I realised I’ve missed blogging. I think about it every now and then and then start to write a draft and never actually finish it. But, I’m back. So here’s a little update. I’ve joined the gym. Two of my siblings had a birthday. Work Drowning is happening to me. Yep, that’s right I am drowning in work.
On the upside, I have had quite an enjoyable month, I love autumn/fall and I feel a lot happier nowadays. I don’t know if I can say the same about some of my friends. I feel like it’s easy to fake happiness. It’s easy to put a smile on your face. I think you can walk around for an entire day with fake laughs and fake happiness and no one would ever notice. It’s wonderful when you’re truly happy. Truly content with life. But, I don’t think I know many people who are.
I had an experience this week where I found one of my good friends, sat alone, crying. And, she is a person who I thought was always “happy”. That’s what I thought anyway. She cried into my arms and told me; she didn’t fall good enough. That no one ever paid any attention to her. No guys ever complimented her. She felt like she had given up socialising and making new friends at our college for studying and good grades. But she still failed. I honestly didn’t know what to say. I wish I had noticed. Sometimes, it is easy to miss when someone else is having a hard time. I am trying to get better at understand and seeing how people really feel.
She’s an actress, not a real one, but an actress at life. It’s easy to put on a mask, to hide your true feelings. When the walls break down that is when we see the true face behind the mask.
I wish that everyone experiences happiness this year, before it ends, whether it be with your family at christmas or just doing what you love. Stay happy. Stay joyful.
Peace out x